I'm so grateful today for the reminder that where I am today is for the most part a result of my choices. The everyday little details of my life I get to choose. There are times I find I'm not pleased with something and want to complain but as I truly think about it, I was the one who chose it.
From my wardrobe to the messiness of my car, I chose them. The precious time missed with my children exploring because i wanted to watch a show that will have no lasting impact on my life, I chose it. Seeing our eating out budget for the month triple because I didn't want to cook; money being tighter than it had to be, I chose it. The 10 lbs I just couldnt seem to get rid of before baby #3 came around, I chose it.
I'm definitely not trying to be a downer on myself. I'm completely thrilled with this revelation. I have always struggled with discipline and have always been left wanting for what I was unwilling to do. Another blog I love to read Money saving mom, has posted this quote 2x's this week.
Discipline is doing what you know needs to be done, even if you don't want to do it.
Crystal also said "I am the problem but I am also the solution". So true!!
I worked on a list of things that I feel are important for me to accomplish each day/week. I have a list of about 15 things, but I plan to narrow it to about 5 and work on adding the others in a few at a time. These are not some far-fetched goals, but things that I have been letting fall through the cracks. I'm gonna work on posting my 5 for the next few weeks and update on here how I am doing.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011
So . . . Ty and I were dreaming big this week.
A new car, mine keeps deciding not to start for me and we really want a 3rd row vehicle so we can keep adding to this beautiful family God has given us.
A screened in porch. Our deck is huge and we love it, but know that we could get so much good use from a screen porch. Like a play room for the kids. Who wants to be out in that heat for long, but we also dont want to be stuck inside. And what better than sitting in a screened porch during a summer storm, even though it seems like those are rare this summer.
A vacation, which with Ty's parents timeshare points would cost us much less than the norm. We are both itching for a get away and having been looking into it for some time. Any place with a pool, our only criteria for a vacation destination.
So . . . we were dreaming big and then my husband decided we should get ourselves back on a budget. A quick look at the money and my hubby suggested a delay in the dreaming. It was sad to say goodbye to that caravan I had my eye on, and the place at the beach with the lazy river, hot tubs, indoor/outdoor pools. And especially hard for my husband to let go of the screened in porch dream.
But it was also a bit of a high. I see the crazy place people around us are in with debt, and our countries current count down to crisis. I see how easy it is to try to convince ourselves that we can take out a loan or get into credit card debt and everything will work out.
I'm so thankful for my husband taking a step back from the dreaming to see the big picture. We dont want to be a servant to our bills. We want to enjoy this life with our amazing children. This makes me feel so grown up. :) haha, although this delayed gratification thing is something I'm working on with our 4 and 2 year olds. Hopefully they catch on faster than we did.
So there is a new line in the budget to save for a car, and we already know our gift for Christmas from Ty's parents is a week vacation for next year, so we will take a cheap camping trip this year and wait for the big getaway next year. First year of our marriage without a "Real" vacation. We dont have a plan yet for the screened porch, but there is plenty of time for enjoying rain showers under our tin roof.
This was way wordy and way long, but I wanted to write it and get over this break in writing on here, so there it is.
A new car, mine keeps deciding not to start for me and we really want a 3rd row vehicle so we can keep adding to this beautiful family God has given us.
A screened in porch. Our deck is huge and we love it, but know that we could get so much good use from a screen porch. Like a play room for the kids. Who wants to be out in that heat for long, but we also dont want to be stuck inside. And what better than sitting in a screened porch during a summer storm, even though it seems like those are rare this summer.
A vacation, which with Ty's parents timeshare points would cost us much less than the norm. We are both itching for a get away and having been looking into it for some time. Any place with a pool, our only criteria for a vacation destination.
So . . . we were dreaming big and then my husband decided we should get ourselves back on a budget. A quick look at the money and my hubby suggested a delay in the dreaming. It was sad to say goodbye to that caravan I had my eye on, and the place at the beach with the lazy river, hot tubs, indoor/outdoor pools. And especially hard for my husband to let go of the screened in porch dream.
But it was also a bit of a high. I see the crazy place people around us are in with debt, and our countries current count down to crisis. I see how easy it is to try to convince ourselves that we can take out a loan or get into credit card debt and everything will work out.
I'm so thankful for my husband taking a step back from the dreaming to see the big picture. We dont want to be a servant to our bills. We want to enjoy this life with our amazing children. This makes me feel so grown up. :) haha, although this delayed gratification thing is something I'm working on with our 4 and 2 year olds. Hopefully they catch on faster than we did.
So there is a new line in the budget to save for a car, and we already know our gift for Christmas from Ty's parents is a week vacation for next year, so we will take a cheap camping trip this year and wait for the big getaway next year. First year of our marriage without a "Real" vacation. We dont have a plan yet for the screened porch, but there is plenty of time for enjoying rain showers under our tin roof.
This was way wordy and way long, but I wanted to write it and get over this break in writing on here, so there it is.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
The beauty of an ugly hairbow
I got my feelings hurt today. It did not feel good, it was not good, it was not loving, BUT in it I found God. He is so good to me. I doubt Him often, and often he shows himself good to me.
I am a wife, mother, daughter, friend, etc, but my most important and most fitting role, will always be that of My Abba's child. And it is when I'm resting in that role that all the others seem to make sense.
I was forced to run to God with my hurt feelings today and he heard my cry, he assured me of who I am unlike any other could. Of course, God my creator knows well who I am.
So the rest of the afternoon I gave up the shows I usually use to fill my time and decided not to check facebook or read the million blogs I subscribe to. I turned some good Jesus music on iTunes and cooked, cleaned, and soaked in his goodness.
Then I was feeling inspired tonight to create(which I haven't done in weeks), and I created an ugly hairbow. I love making felt hairbows. It seems like I always get stuck with creating what I have already seen, so I decided to make something ugly, colors I wouldn't normally put together and just some randomness of buttons, and guess what, I actually kind of like it. Maybe no one else in the world would see its beauty(although my husband said it was cute, but he always does), but for me it is a declaration of my special role here on this earth, no cookie cutter could make it, but I was formed in the hands of my creator, for his glory, and in that I find great joy and peace.
I am a wife, mother, daughter, friend, etc, but my most important and most fitting role, will always be that of My Abba's child. And it is when I'm resting in that role that all the others seem to make sense.
I was forced to run to God with my hurt feelings today and he heard my cry, he assured me of who I am unlike any other could. Of course, God my creator knows well who I am.
So the rest of the afternoon I gave up the shows I usually use to fill my time and decided not to check facebook or read the million blogs I subscribe to. I turned some good Jesus music on iTunes and cooked, cleaned, and soaked in his goodness.
Then I was feeling inspired tonight to create(which I haven't done in weeks), and I created an ugly hairbow. I love making felt hairbows. It seems like I always get stuck with creating what I have already seen, so I decided to make something ugly, colors I wouldn't normally put together and just some randomness of buttons, and guess what, I actually kind of like it. Maybe no one else in the world would see its beauty(although my husband said it was cute, but he always does), but for me it is a declaration of my special role here on this earth, no cookie cutter could make it, but I was formed in the hands of my creator, for his glory, and in that I find great joy and peace.
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